flames

Sun beams catching and warming my cheeks between shadows of branches.

My light, quick pace pats the concrete street.

A happy spirit saying hello to passersby through my eyes

and then a goodbye in my smile.

All those passersby lifting their gaze and brightneing to me.

On high, I hear through my airpods-

"It won't be easy, you'll think it's strange

When I try to explain how I feel

That I still need your love after all that I've done

You won't believe me

All you will see is a girl you once knew

Although she's dressed up to the nines

At sixes and sevens with you

I had to let it happen, I had to change

Couldn't stay all my life down at heel

Looking out of the window, staying out of the sun

So I chose freedom

Running around, trying everything new

But nothing impressed me at all

I never expected it to..."

A time when I was engaged to be married

and on the rocks.

Hope, chaos, suffocation, numbness, confusion.

What I could rely on, was the moment I was in.

I could feel the peace, beauty, and warmth of the sun in that moment.

Solace in music

that closes the gap.

And that was enough to power the light in my eyes,

And the love in my smile.

The glimmer of connection to passersby somehow made it

All alright.

It has been nearly three years since that moment.

The song turned on transporting me back to that vivid point in time.

And now I cry.

A feeling of sadness released that I had not known until now.

I think this is the beauty of life.

We cannot have expectations for feelings.

Memories and feelings of discomfort

will emerge throughout life's journey.

We are meant to feel, observe and pass it.

To be awake

in the waking moment.

Allow ourselves to grow through the beauty presented by our minds

to create

Life.